Today is the 2nd official day of my complete end to this nursing journey. I made this decision after knowing that I might have asthma. And since the doctor confirmed it, I have decided to go on a detox once I complete all medications.
I'm a firm believer of treating the root cause of a disease or physical condition. I won't accept what the doctor claims to be untreatable or incurable for certain sicknesses. To begin my detox program, nursing would have to stop or the toxins may pass on to Clayton.
But know what, I didn't know it is affecting me emotionally until a short chat with my good friend earlier on. I was getting emotional, with tears welling up my eyes, when I told her that I had stopped nursing Clayton. He would cry and wail for a while (don't know how long cos I am so tired) and I felt so sad. I was tempted to give in and let him nursed a little more but I couldn't. It was tough love...
I held him close to me and talked nicely, gently and praying that he would understand what I said. Thankfully, he would settle for apple juice after a while... it was alot of patience and calmness. I was glad that he dozed off to sleep after that and when morning came, he would be smiling again...
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I am quite surprised to learn that one can develop asthma. I always assumed that you have it from childhood.
Oh yes, Adam. According to the doc, there are 4 asthma occurrences:
1) From birth to death (hereditary)
2) From childhood to early teens (about 12 yo)
3) From the onset of adulthood (fr 30s, 40s, even 50s) to death
Emm.. it seems that I'm in the 3rd category but I'm determine to discharge myself from this disease.
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